My latest addiction has been probably the most immersive, expansive, and complete Grand Theft Auto game ever made.  Five.  I can’t even begin to describe how awesome this game is.  Just the pure depth of what is possible, even if you ignore the main story line.  There’s literally a full city to see and explore, filled with random events to partake in, people to talk to, and things to do.  From knocking over banks, robbing armored cars, to street races and assassinations – Los Santos is fricken amazing.

And then there’s the coming online experience.  Being able to play online with up to 16 people, free roaming the entire map.  The possibilities are endless.  Roam the streets day and night and cause mayhem and havoc.  Have a standoff with the police, and a teammate flies in with a chopper to pull everyone out.  How awesome is that?

State of Mind

So, it’s been a hot minute since I’ve written anything worthwhile, so I figured I should change that.  I’d like to take a second to talk about how the state of the world turns to shit the older you get.  It’s really true.  It feels like the older I get, the more cynical, doubtful, and harsh I am towards the rest of the world.

Just picture back when you were like 8 years old.  Nothing mattered except that you were hanging out with your best friend(s), you had sweet toys, and you weren’t in trouble.

Then you progress into middle school, and all of a sudden there’s a shit-ton of new people you’ve never met before.  Certain ones are complete fuckers to you, other ones join your group of friends, and others you just don’t interact with.  Girls (or boys, as the case may be) all of a sudden become more interesting and intriguing.  School becomes hard.  Outside of school you learn about real fucking life.

High school just rounds everything out.  Culmination of social bullshit.  Culmination of school.  People come into their own.  You start to realize that the world isn’t as shiny, pretty, and perfect as you once remembered as a child.  People are shitty.  People are cruel.  People are insane.

And then you get out of high school and you expect that to be completely different.  “Yeah, people aren’t assholes in the real world.”  When in fact, people in the real world are more shitty than high school.  People will steal from you, con you, push their skewed perspective on you, and judge you for not being as stupid or crazy as they are.

The older I’ve gotten, the more cynical I get.  I see it everywhere, people always looking out for Number 1 (and I don’t mean the Chinese joint) and failing to just be a decent fucking human being.  We care too much about the superficial, instead of the critical.  The world is going to shit, there’s class warfare, political warfare, and actual warfare, everywhere.  It pains me, because I long for a reality where people just respected and helped one another.  Where there wasn’t prejudice against the different, the harmless, or the ones that are worse off.

A day will come, hopefully while I’m still alive on this planet, where our society will pull itself out of the fucking toilet.  One day.